Friday, May 2, 2014

Maybe...

Maybe I jumped ahead of myself asumming that maybe things could be different in this house...Maybe I didn't think it right.. I thought that since my Mom left me the house that I could make it right in Jehovah's eyes.. a Christain home but maybe I was wrong. I don't understand it all. . Why my Mama made a will and trust she didn't want anything to happen to her family home.. Dad became a Drunk at my age 12.. nothing was ever the same.. She didn't leave because she didn't want to lose her families home.. Came from Russia in 1925 and bought the house. . My oldest brother became a herion user at age 15 my next brother later became a crack cocaine and alcohol abuser.. so she left everything to me.. knowing I would do my best to care for it all.. the home is distroyed pretty much. My brother being a crack cocaine user and came to live with her she wanted him out but didn't have the energy. She would call me crying and complaning on a regular basis.. now he won't leave I'm stuck with all the responsiblities while the whole time he is getting high and drinking.. he on Sunday went to the hospital. almost died.. behind the drugs and alcohol... and now his daughter's are threatening me because they think he has the right for whatever he wants.. Jehovah from this moment on I'm putting it in your hands before I flipped and say or do something not right.. Please heavenly father help me help me to control myself and my thoughts so I don't act silly like others.. help me to maintain my self in a proper manner... please hear my prayers etc.. You know Jehovah.. Help me...


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